I'm back

hmm.. starting to hate the layout of my blog.
anyway, couldnt kinda remember the last time i log in.
was way too busy. u know ns lives?? u only get to book out on the god damn late saturday afternoon. book in by 8pm on the next day. dont even had enough time to catch up with my old mates. haak! aite. i'm botak. n army life is cool. swear!


some recent photos taken when i book out.


met with with my kakis.

with the ladies

book out for competition.

and now are some photos that i actually took secretly with my cam phone in camp. haak!


the spartans spirits!

u'll never walk alone

bunk mates

how bout' one wuth the camo face.

Fixing A Broken Heart

There was nothing to say the day she left
Just filled a suitcase full of regretsI hailed a taxi in rain
Looking for some place to ease the pain, ooh
Then like an answered prayer
I turned you around and found you there*
You really know where to start
Fixing a broken heart
You really know what to do
Your emotional tools can cure any fool
Whose draems have broken apart
Fixing a broken heart
Now I don't understand what
I'm going through
There must be a plan that led me to you
Because the hurt just disappears
In every moment that you are neat, yeah
Just like an answered prayer
You must the londliness easy to bear
Soon the rain will stop falling baby
And I'll forget the past'cause here we are at leat

Serenity of the night makes me misses your presence.
Reminisce the days we had, the songs the shared.

angry!

ultimate pissed off feeling. !!
i'm in this company longer then you, dont think i'm a push over!!
people here busy until not even getting a bite of food and u can jolly well sit there.
idiot i tell u!! idiot!! unlike u,
i work with integrity, earn every sales with hardwork.
so dont ever compare! u'r no where near me! stupid!

my life's in a mess! thoughts of quitting school always on my mind.
its like 1more week to go. but i knew i cant pass my modules.
hold on mto me, i'm falling off the edge.

STRESS~!!!!

Thats When I Love You

When you have to look away
When you don't have much to say
That's when I love you
I love you
Just that way

To hear you stumble when you speak
or see you walk with two left feet
That's when I love you
I love you endlessly

And when you're mad cause you lost a game
Forget im waiting in the rain
Baby I love you
I love you anyway

Cause here's my promise made tonight
You can count on me for life
Cause that's when I love you
When nothing you do could change my mind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love you
When I love you no matter what

So when you turn to hide your eyes
Cause the movie, it made you cry
That's when I love you
I love you a little more each time

And when you can't quite match your clothes
Or when you laugh at your own jokes
That's when I love you
I love you more than you know

And when you forget that we had a date
Or that look that you give when you show up late
Baby I love you
I love you anyway

Cause here's my promise made tonight
You can count on me for life
Cause that's when I love you
When nothing you do could change my mind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love you
When I love you no matter what

That's when I love you
When nothing baby
Nothing you do could change my mind
The more I learn the more i love
The more my heart can't get enough
Thats when I love you
When I love you
No matter what

No matter what

met up with shin n kelvin at wendy's house for mahjong session.
' ve been playing mahjong for afew nights already.
went for mac breakfast at yew tee. hahahhak!
long time since i last step in there.
it used to be the daily regular spot after school.
shin read my palm after our meals. hahahhak!
its accurate i would say.in fact things that he say makes sense.
alright, now he's got me wondering bout wad i should do already.

finally, having enough strength to blog n upload some photos.
sleeping only afew hours in a week. i mean u guys wouldnt wanna waste ur CNY also aite?
alright~ lets do some updating-

second day~
as usual the routine every year, went for lion dance early in the morning.
all the way till late eveing, went home for a shower.
headed to ah keong's house. troupe peeps all gathering there.
as usual, gambling den. hahaha! alrite, shall admit.
this year gambling den at his house was nothing compared to the past.
i mean u could hardly find a place to squeeze man! okay. enough for that.

well. headed to boat quay again at around 1plus.
was only intending to finish up my the balance so only ask real lil' ppl over.
in the end, daniel brought daven n some of his troupe members over.
ended up opening another bottle. lmao!!


last minutes nites out~

the guys~

daniel, junjie n me

daven n me
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3rd day~

relatives all came over to my place. mum's cooking is simply the best!
as usual, ask wenel over. wanted to ask more, but its was kinda too last minute.
wendy, kel n shin stay till quite late. they were enjoying arent' they? hahah!
baby ask me to her house for mahjong session. i didnt want to go alone so ask kel n shin along.
all the way til morning headed to my troupe for lion dance again. -_-"

Happy Lunar New Year

happy new year to all~ wish all fortune, fortune n more fortune. =)

alright. spent my eve at boat quey after my reunion dinner.
went with jayme, daven, daniel n some of daniel's junior.
to my suprise, we aint the only ppl goin boat quay on the eve.
well, at least most of the places are crowded, familiar faces everywhere.
went to colour zone. had hell lots of conversations woth daven.
from lion dance conflicts all the way to relationships. =)
after that went for mac breakfast at around 6:30.
its already 7plus by the time i reach home.
n i woke up at 9. -_-" my eyes could bearly open man!'
drag my feets n hands to get myslf ready. burned!
its a bliss as my parents are also tired that they decide to end today's house visit early.
at least i can rest at home man. =)

baby dumbdumb. hee.

My Valentines's Day

valentine's day wasnt as bored as i thought it could be.
went to tanjong pagar cloud nine with my troupe mates.
drank to our fullest. enjoying every moment. =)
filled our stomach at a coffeeshop in boat quay.
i've been goin there for days man! gosh!
went to colour zone to take a peep alone.
well. but at least i get a sweet greeting from...
err. think i wouldnt say here. =)
alright. enough of my nonsense. rather drunk now.
nites everybody. n to all couples out there~..
u guys are so fortunate. cherish every moment u've got. peace-


Mark, Yang n me!!

Ah Yang & me.

stop squeezing me guys!!

caizhen n me.

Valentine's day kiss for mark the pooh bear.

idoits~!! hahahhak!

Happy Valentine's Day

firstly.. shall maybe use this platform to wish all those ppl out there that i've miss out sending my greetings over.. Happy Valentine's Day!!

well. went Colour Zone again with Martin n Long last nite. saw henry there den he was like... "wah!! u all come everyday ah?!".. hahahhak!

i was there becus Martin ask me over to finish up the balance. Long was there cus he's with me earlier on. Martin- let me tell u something, u'r really goin in deep shit man! u'r digging ur own grave! as for mine, u dont have to worry man! hahahhak!

sigh. guess everybody already decided where to head today. couples on the streets, hands interlocking. makes me re-consider certain things. or should i say, having a clearer view of wads down the road for me.

thanks guys for being there for me when i'm down. everybody's giving me shitty idiotic faces n attitude. to hell with those ppl! its u guys that hold me on strong, not letting me fall n indulge in the world of hyporites. guess i'm still in my own blues without u guys. thanks!

there goes my weekends. ultimate boredom.

friday~
went alex house for video project.
completed two sence. muai thai was a hard one.
my fist kinda swallon n red. haha. i'm weak. =S
was so burned out when i reach home n eventually slept at around 9 plus.
woke up to only see tons of msges n missed calls. sorry. i was too tired.

saturday~
helped JJC for their performance early in the morning.
darn. didnt even know why i'm doin all these.
had some 'waste my time' kinda feelings. hahaha.
continued the ultimate tourturing in the afternoon.
which actually ended at around 11plus. -_-"
went to plaza s'pore to catch a movie.
title was "Adrift" or something. coudnt rmb. haas.
well. the rest fell asleep in the theatre. *lmao*.
maybe the movie is too boring for em or could be that they're too tired. lols.
but overall i find it a nice movie. rather realistic as in how human struggle to survive.
or should i say how pathetic humans can be. n thats how true. swear!

today's sunday. wasnt suppose to be staying at home. but i am. haas.
didnt go anywhere today. was at home the whole day. weird eh~

i recieved a phone call ytd. suprise n shocked.
but after the phone call i felt so betrayed. !@#$%
u guys better leave all ur comments to yourself.
dont make me really leave n wash my hands off everything.
if spreading nonsense is ur hobby then dont let me know.
ignorance is a bliss for me. i cant be bothered. swear!

no. never will i understand. whats wrong for me to apologize?

what u mention was the last thing that i wanna hear from u man.

u simply just doesnt understand the whole thing.

u knew what i'm always looking forward to all this while.
yet u still choose to belive the way u think.
could u jus for goodness understand the whole situation first?
alright, i know i'm in no position asking u to do so.
but my right to protect my dignity??
i should at least have that.

i've learn to stand up n voice for myslf.
i'm not that mute anymore!!
no long a dumb person.
over my dead body!!

i know i've own u too much to be mention.
nv will i be able to repay u even with my life.
sorry but u just dont know how i feel.
u have ur reasons i have my restrictions.

to whoever out there thats so concerned bout my status.
i'm still single!! nv trust what it appear to be.
anyway, dont bother to ask me anything bout relation.
u girls wouldnt want me.
i'm a bastard!! i live for my own!!
i dont think for my girlfriend!!

guilt .. regrets

i swear i didnt know wads going wrong. i admit i was missing in school for the past few months. alright, i'm indulging in my own world. it was until today that i really did talk to u. well, didnt actually realise that my moment of folly, or should i say prank to flood all testi n tag causes u so much of a trouble. direct shots of guilt feeling went tru me. i regretted deeply doing so. u must be hating me now. apology to u. i didnt know things could get this bad. i understand what u'r going tru. trust me.

i dont know why i'm being sucha sweetie.
To ppl who obviously dont deserve it.
But anyway, it doesnt really matter,
cause i've jus too much to fred about.
So wadeva it is bitch, jus shut ur crap and
get along with ur life, ur pathetic life..

In short, the last weeks have been sort of exhausting mentally, emotionally and physically but nonetheless for I have been blessed enough to be able to smell the roses along the way. It's lovely! The world is never short of things for us to wonder about. It brought to me realisation that reality is not simply about pictures that paint a thousand words, or actions that speaks louder than words. It is about the mind that seeks to find beauty and whimsical moments amidst the lousiest and 'bestest' times in either excruciatingly painful or exquisitely pleasureable company. It is this state of mind that will paint pictures and translate actions into words while at the same time radiate rays of golden heart. How many people in the world actually wear their hearts on the sleeves? These are the people that I cherish the most and the kind of people that I know, despite their imperfections, remain to be the most beautiful and special people I can ever welcome into my life. After all, who needs a racing rat? We do not live in a laboratory!

Happy birthday to Jerdin~!!

Went to Grazz to celebrate Jerdin's birthday.
She actually booked the whole 3rd level. Shiok!

Birthday girl, Jerdin
Me, Serina, Jerdin
Papa!! hahahaha.
Ah Ben n me
JianWei n me
With Forest.
Another one with Serina
Haha. Rain Rain n me
Me on Roy's Lap. Eek!
My retarded smile. =)
One with Jonathan
With RainRain n Papa
Me n Bryan
Took this accidentally. But turned out to be nice eh?

A trip to Pulau Semakau with my class.

Always On My Mind
by Elvis Presley

Maybe I didnt treat you
Quite as good as I should have
Maybe I didnt love you
Quite as often as I could have
Little things I should have said and done
I just never took the time

You were always on my mind
You were always on my mind

Tell me, tell me that your sweet love hasnt died
Give me, give me one more chance
To keep you satisfied, satisfied

Maybe I didnt hold you
All those lonely, lonely times
And I guess I never told you
Im so happy that youre mine
If I make you feel second best
Girl, Im sorry I was blind

You were always on my mind
You were always on my mind

Tell me, tell me that your sweet love hasnt died
Give me, give me one more chance
To keep you satisfied, satisfied

Little things I should have said and done
I just never took the time
You were always on my mind
You are always on my mind
You are always on my mind

Morning 3:34am..
Henry called me for prawn-ing session.
I've got nothing to do at home anyway so went ahead with him n Jerrin.
Was deciding on either Farmart or birdhill.
Toss a coin and off we went to birdhill.

Henry n me
Concentrating..
Hooked on??
Henry working on the bait.
Sitting down to rest..
One with eggs..

We Prawn till morning 7plus den bbq our harvest.
Haas. Went Mac for breakfast after that.
Prawn till day.
Washing up the prawn.
Prepare to bbq. *slurp*