his confession to joan..
looks like things change.. haiz.. u no longer treat him like last time le.. haiz..sumtimes he tink to himslf.. do u reali need him as much as u say.. or did u jus say so to make him feel contented.. haiz.. if he doesn't care bout u den do u think he will actuali buy so much things for u in hongkong when he himself cant find some personal stuff for himself.. how he feels when the moment he alight at sg airport n rush down straight to ur father's wake despite going against his father n u actuali ask him to go back home sleep if he's tired..how he feels when he saw u msg bh.. u said u missed him.. he miss u too.. but he feel useless when he cant do anitink to help u.. things were going gaga in his mind.. appeared to be cheerful but do u actuali think he is.. went to ur dad's wake afther training when his energy is actuali totali drained out.. but u make him feel like he dun eali need to be there.. cuz u dun give a damn bout him.. so does he reali make a diffrence weather he's there ornot.. think to urself.. haiz.. maybe u still thinks dat its his fault.. aniway.. go find a better guy bah.. since u dun need him weather he stil love u anot isn't a matter animore le bahx.. he've learn .. learned a great lesson.. so he thinks he should not be bothering wif ur life animore.. cuz u'r more miserable wif him.. u've paid ur price so did he.. he losses lots of friends because they tot he bullied u n took him for lan jiao lang.. loss his parents trust cuz he betrayed their trust everitime becuz of u.. all becuz of u.. haiz.. guess he oso paid a huge price le buh..
take care.. u reali were once part of his life..

Ain't feeling good, wonder why.Pissed over at the smallest thing.Blockage. Can't think.I need my light. The guidance.
Things appear when you don't need them, don't wan to see them.Yet on the other hand, goes into hiding if you need them desperately.
Wake up.If only I can choose what I want to think then I would feel so much better.If only I can choose what I want and get what I want then I would be happier.In this case, quality matters more then quantity.